December 2012
65 posts
Such is life
But this is something I already knew. Smooth move on my part, smh
“Secret keeping no good lousy mf”
I’m not okay with this. Don’t want to be. Can’t understand how you are.
I’m truly feeling like “fuck the holidays”. I’m nowhere near being in the spirit nor can my.. “family” get it together long enough to at least fake getting along. There’s always some sideways bullshit coming out of someone’s mouth & it’s usually the elders talking that most shit.
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I got this.
I’m really pushing myself to learn a new strength & I think I’m doing fairly well. Especially considering how I’m no stranger to breaking down & emotionally relapsing..
Not this time ! (Knock on wood)
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Too early to hear a heartbeat but scheduling our first high-frequency ultrasound for after Christmas to determine a more educated due date.
Not holding my breath
I wonder if you realize that you not being able to sleep right now is a Godly sign..
Know this: I’ll always resent you for allowing your foolish pride be the reason you miss this initial step. Not to mention but to mention the fact that I’m going into this alone.
In the back of my mind & from the bottom of my heart.
I suuuure do pick ‘em.
Anywho.. Getting myself ready...
“Peace equals power.”
Heard it all before, my brotha
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"Polkadothontas"
..!
=]
I got some great shots of my little monkey playing in the first accumulated snow.
Oh, shut up.
Shut up, shut up, shut.. UP
Nobody gives a shit !
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Feeling defeated as fuck already & its not even 9AM yet.
I’m taking my ass back to sleep for a while.
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The fuck is the point
I mean, really
Fuck Wells Fargo
I’m definitely learning to keep my feelings controlled.
I’ve got soo many words for your selfish ass but I won’t bother to waste my time or breath.
Onward & upward, mi amigo.
Facts, not feelings
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It always freaks me out when my horoscope is so on...
Sagittarius Dec 16 2012
You are in conflict with someone now, Sagittarius. You have a point you can’t seem to get across, and it might be bugging you. But you are probably making your case by using an argument that is emotionally charged. For this issue, though - and with this particular person - you need to present the more logical side of the story. The one you are dealing...
Your turn to sweat.
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No more naps
My sleeping schedule is all outta whack. But I’m awake now, surprisingly. So maybe I’ll attempt to get back on a normal pattern.
Getting back into bed
Ay dios mio
I feel like pure shit.
Emotionally & physically.
No matter how tired I am or claim to be, I think I will always reach out to the ones I love. In fact, I know I will. It’s kind of bittersweet because 9/10 the same people aren’t there for me like I am for them.
Is it something wrong in the way I unconditionally love these people?
I fight within myself about whether or not they’re deserving but I always end up looking at...
Damn my want/twisted need to know everything. Damn it to Hell.
I really have to stop putting myself in these situations.
Nowhere to go but up
I seriously need to get shit together.
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What a fucking coward.
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On a less thought-consuming note..
Getting ready to hop in bed & catch up on The Walking Dead.
What you won’t do is blow off baby beby. Period.
It’s already unfair that you’re doing it to me but it’s ESPECIALLY unfair to her.
I’m not saying I deserve it but I am used to this behavior from you. She isn’t. Especially as of late.
So if you can’t man up in the daddy area at the very least? Politely bow out completely because you already know how I...
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11:11
You'll never know another thought of mine
I will make sure of it because you don’t deserve to know how what you’re doing is affecting me.
I will no longer express my sadness, anger, disappointment or even happiness for you to see.
I won’t let you know how angry I am within myself. At you but more so at myself. I’m vowing to be better, not bitter because its the healthier choice.
You won’t know about my...
Oh, before I forget !
I’ve decided to take everything I want to say to you (in whatever moment I get the urge) & place it here. Only because I’m tired of expressing my thoughts to you & because I don’t think you deserve to know half of how I feel, good & bad.
We’ll see who misses who after I treat you like I don’t want to be bothered. We shall see.
I forgot I have to do grocery shopping tonight.
..Goddamnit
That’s it.. I’ll set this damned phone down & lose myself in these late night cartoons until I sleep.
See you soon, Blog O’Mine
"Love don't pay tha bills"
Fuck you, straight up.
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I asked for some kind of sign yesterday & I got one today.
A great job opportunity with the State has presented itself. One I tested for earlier this year, during the summer. There are only 2 vacancies for the position & Lord knows how many applicants received the same letter as I. Maybe not many are interested in the position still now that there are vacancies.. I have to submit some...
Time heals almost everything; give the time some time.
One day..
One day, everything will be okay.
I don't want this.
I didn’t sign up for this shit
